reasoning for the mad

one of my batchmates said something interesting..."so...there some method in (your)madness!!" ;- her amusement was the fact that I remain a vegetarian ..alongside the the other tags i carry like nicotene,high alcohol consumption, long hair, marijuana*, intolerable forms of music and antiosocial behaviour.


To be honest i liked what she said through and thru, not that i like the word "method", but I took pride in being 'mad'...but then..no!the truth is , iam not mad enough. Im getting less crazier by the day...I smile at people...I go meet friends on weekends..be nice to them..warm good byes..(and similar behaviour o on the web!). I try (very remotely) to meet the office deadlines, make documents about stuff which is not even my headache and check for spelling mistakes (not that i spot them...thanks to dyslexia). I also sometimes write on this blog.


let me get a little crazy here...where is the seperation between sanity and insanity? it lies in the magic word called "LOGIC" ...and many people use the word 'reason' instead. I am tryng to construct scentences which say that logic and reason are different (or i have a completly tangential understanding of english). Logic is validated reasoning. this validity comes from people who build the context around you . So a mad man has reasons for his(her?) actions, reasons not validated by the people around, and hence are not logical. So, technically , there is no role for the mad man in the society... we dont want him anymore...so he ll die,or if worse...he will live like that. Now If I turn back to myself, I think iam caught somewhere between, insanity and survival instincts, or like how she said ..method and madness. May be I want to be with the society , so that they will let me live longer (and i can pursue my madness for long...)....
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I stop when i dont make sense to myself-

(* I look so lost, all the time that people think iam perpetually on dope. I do it once every 3 months..or so..the interesting fact it that when iam on it, they tell me i look fresh! )
here is some observations.......




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