above are some pictures from span of 3 months , whenever i was alone in the elevator.Below is how they superimpose (average)
Thursday, March 27, 2008
the average day
above are some pictures from span of 3 months , whenever i was alone in the elevator.Below is how they superimpose (average)
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Monday, May 21, 2007
integrity.....
.....is the property by which you think in circles.
no its not derogatory!! atleast not for me , actually i regard it as the most valuable adjective of a human being. If talking about integrity rings bells about morals and shit like that i would like to mention that both travel in opposite directions. (Comparatively, integrity is about being a little more stupid with life.) ill tell you how....
Morals are like those text books given to you when you are in the school, its a format passed down through generations of assholishness, an attempt to customize you just the way they wanted you to be, and worse...to make you just like them. They are those ruled notebooks on which you are supposed to write, to be embraced without wonder and suspicion. Everybody wants you to be predictable, they want you write in straight lines. If you think about it... Its a better survival strategy to be moral,cos you win more brownie points from all the assholes who are running the show (parents, teachers, bosses, so 4th,). so all the suckers who turn up to work at 9:30 in pressed clothes climb the stairway to disneyland, than the ones who try and give their best . If your one of those people whom im talkin about, you most probably,are looking for spelling mistakes amongst these paragraphs and we occur to be mutual assholes.
Integrity on the other hand has more to do with choice and about being self supportive, attempting to find answers from inside for all those things you (are asked to) do. It starts with wondering and ends with understanding,,,,a full circle!It works more like oriental medicine. So if you want nobody to fuck around your personal choices, you also know, what not to do. so when you are trying to do things you go through a process of question and answers and try to reach comprehension, it makes it less probable that you, do say or accept things without knowing them.its like You wash your socks because it feels good in clean ones and not becasue your'e aunt laughed at you. its state of existence where you are defining your right and wrong, and because you've figured it out all by yourself and you will never tell anyone about cleaning their socks. (however, you can chose introduce them to the concept if you care enough). Basically you try and keep the rules same for you and everyone else.
In set theory this is called closure property. If you were to be considered a set "P" and all that you do and believe, values and stuff are set of {P}=(a,b,c,d,.....x), all these elements have the property of being closed i.e, an operation between the elements results in a an element within the set itself, you do what you, believe and vice versa. well....its a hypothetical state of existence and its always a journey towards that and you are never actually there.
In set theory again if u remember there are things called integers, it is interesting to think that the word integer actually means, complete, whole and may be where the word integrity boroows the meaning, back then philosophy and math were not 2 different things
overbored
well..ehem! going a little overboard... a laterally orthogonal possibility that the above mentioned thought process creates an underlying lifecycle of ups and downs (literally illustrated by the sine curve) in a persons life.
no its not derogatory!! atleast not for me , actually i regard it as the most valuable adjective of a human being. If talking about integrity rings bells about morals and shit like that i would like to mention that both travel in opposite directions. (Comparatively, integrity is about being a little more stupid with life.) ill tell you how....
Morals are like those text books given to you when you are in the school, its a format passed down through generations of assholishness, an attempt to customize you just the way they wanted you to be, and worse...to make you just like them. They are those ruled notebooks on which you are supposed to write, to be embraced without wonder and suspicion. Everybody wants you to be predictable, they want you write in straight lines. If you think about it... Its a better survival strategy to be moral,cos you win more brownie points from all the assholes who are running the show (parents, teachers, bosses, so 4th,). so all the suckers who turn up to work at 9:30 in pressed clothes climb the stairway to disneyland, than the ones who try and give their best . If your one of those people whom im talkin about, you most probably,are looking for spelling mistakes amongst these paragraphs and we occur to be mutual assholes.
Integrity on the other hand has more to do with choice and about being self supportive, attempting to find answers from inside for all those things you (are asked to) do. It starts with wondering and ends with understanding,,,,a full circle!It works more like oriental medicine. So if you want nobody to fuck around your personal choices, you also know, what not to do. so when you are trying to do things you go through a process of question and answers and try to reach comprehension, it makes it less probable that you, do say or accept things without knowing them.its like You wash your socks because it feels good in clean ones and not becasue your'e aunt laughed at you. its state of existence where you are defining your right and wrong, and because you've figured it out all by yourself and you will never tell anyone about cleaning their socks. (however, you can chose introduce them to the concept if you care enough). Basically you try and keep the rules same for you and everyone else.
In set theory this is called closure property. If you were to be considered a set "P" and all that you do and believe, values and stuff are set of {P}=(a,b,c,d,.....x), all these elements have the property of being closed i.e, an operation between the elements results in a an element within the set itself, you do what you, believe and vice versa. well....its a hypothetical state of existence and its always a journey towards that and you are never actually there.
In set theory again if u remember there are things called integers, it is interesting to think that the word integer actually means, complete, whole and may be where the word integrity boroows the meaning, back then philosophy and math were not 2 different things
overbored
well..ehem! going a little overboard... a laterally orthogonal possibility that the above mentioned thought process creates an underlying lifecycle of ups and downs (literally illustrated by the sine curve) in a persons life.
Sunday, May 14, 2006
reasoning for the mad
one of my batchmates said something interesting..."so...there some method in (your)madness!!" ;- her amusement was the fact that I remain a vegetarian ..alongside the the other tags i carry like nicotene,high alcohol consumption, long hair, marijuana*, intolerable forms of music and antiosocial behaviour.
To be honest i liked what she said through and thru, not that i like the word "method", but I took pride in being 'mad'...but then..no!the truth is , iam not mad enough. Im getting less crazier by the day...I smile at people...I go meet friends on weekends..be nice to them..warm good byes..(and similar behaviour o on the web!). I try (very remotely) to meet the office deadlines, make documents about stuff which is not even my headache and check for spelling mistakes (not that i spot them...thanks to dyslexia). I also sometimes write on this blog.
let me get a little crazy here...where is the seperation between sanity and insanity? it lies in the magic word called "LOGIC" ...and many people use the word 'reason' instead. I am tryng to construct scentences which say that logic and reason are different (or i have a completly tangential understanding of english). Logic is validated reasoning. this validity comes from people who build the context around you . So a mad man has reasons for his(her?) actions, reasons not validated by the people around, and hence are not logical. So, technically , there is no role for the mad man in the society... we dont want him anymore...so he ll die,or if worse...he will live like that. Now If I turn back to myself, I think iam caught somewhere between, insanity and survival instincts, or like how she said ..method and madness. May be I want to be with the society , so that they will let me live longer (and i can pursue my madness for long...)....
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I stop when i dont make sense to myself-
(* I look so lost, all the time that people think iam perpetually on dope. I do it once every 3 months..or so..the interesting fact it that when iam on it, they tell me i look fresh! )
here is some observations.......
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Thursday, April 13, 2006
Rajkumar died.....
....................and soon shall I,
as i run out of my supplies of food, music and nicotene . People had in this city have had it planned and were wating for this day. All the glass clad builings suddenly became very interesting to look at.
they fucked up the tata motors building ( and lots of others) near my place.
My freedom is best
Whole country's on house arrest
And everyone's a suspect
You can't feel the flow because you died
Face down on a "suicide"
The muthafucker's on self-destruct
Nobody guardin' your back, it's all a front
Save this! My rage is bliss!
I finally had to subscribe to the aunties food, she checked twice if i were asking only for today
:- one of the boxes had spoilt aloo curry, well i dint understand the business model!!
those ten minutes walking thru the families was hell
kids running all around you
dog tied outside barking at everything that goes by.
three women staring at the guy in the pony (me!) in the torn t-shirt almost human .
adolscent boys, tryin to talk about porn books and other adult-shit , jumping around in their shorts.
and that lady-women doing their night walk early in the evening and and the Grey t-shirt(with blond hair) thought she was gettin attention (well i gave her enough , right?).
and the stone throwing procession to add to all the excitement in to you friendly auntie-uncle-beta neihbourhood.
as i run out of my supplies of food, music and nicotene . People had in this city have had it planned and were wating for this day. All the glass clad builings suddenly became very interesting to look at.
they fucked up the tata motors building ( and lots of others) near my place.
My freedom is best
Whole country's on house arrest
And everyone's a suspect
You can't feel the flow because you died
Face down on a "suicide"
The muthafucker's on self-destruct
Nobody guardin' your back, it's all a front
Save this! My rage is bliss!
I finally had to subscribe to the aunties food, she checked twice if i were asking only for today
:- one of the boxes had spoilt aloo curry, well i dint understand the business model!!
those ten minutes walking thru the families was hell
kids running all around you
dog tied outside barking at everything that goes by.
three women staring at the guy in the pony (me!) in the torn t-shirt almost human .
adolscent boys, tryin to talk about porn books and other adult-shit , jumping around in their shorts.
and that lady-women doing their night walk early in the evening and and the Grey t-shirt(with blond hair) thought she was gettin attention (well i gave her enough , right?).
and the stone throwing procession to add to all the excitement in to you friendly auntie-uncle-beta neihbourhood.
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